hay.. as usual.. im online again.. alang magawa eh.. kase we were dismissed at around 3 eh i have a practice ng dance at 6... so instead of waiting alone there in pav.. me here na lang..tambay.. and post sa teentalk {as usual!}

so what's up with me? anyweiz... i toped our chem class.. lam mo ba yun! niahhaa... sa chem lecture top3 ako.. then sa chem lab.. aba... top 1 ako.. nyahaha.. although.. kung ibbase mo yun sa standards koh.. mababa pa yun grade ko.. kase 2 lang equivalent nun.. eh ang target ko sana eh flat 1.. ssshh.. quiet ah... i dont hink i would be able to get that kase prelim pamlang 2 na.. hindi na ako mkkahabol kaht anong gwin ko.. aim na lang ako ng 1.5 pwede na ba yun? hehe... anyweiz.. im doin good naman in class.. kaya lang i really find nutrition... BORING.. as in... parang hindi conducive to learning yung room namin.. tas ang hina pa ng boses ng prof namin.. ewan ko... i barely listen to my prof eh.. wahahah!!

anyweiz.. last week pala... i went for an audition sa dance.. kase if you got accepted... you'll be included sa performers sa welcome party on 29 where MYMP will be performing too..!! yey.. im sooo excited.. anyweiz.. its not that biggie party naman.. its for nursing studs lang naman.. kaya lang.. dami ahse... they'll gonna conquer the area.. kase andami nila... sana wala namang away kase diba.. pangit naman non..  anyweiz.. yun nga.. i got accepted.. kaya lang there are some people who made an issue na.. the reason why i got accepted was that the judges know me.. eh.. heller???!!! hindi lang naman isa yung ngjudge.. do i know the other judges? do they know me? hindi noh... i onli know one of them kase nakasama ko na yun sa dance last year.. hay naku.. why are they making rumors about that? it's very mababaw.. lam mo yun.. kainis.. hay naku.. di ko na nga lang sila pinapansin eh... kase.. diba?? ang babaw tlga..

uy.. guess what.. i got nominated sa teentalk awards... 2 nominations.. friendliest and cutest avatar.. yey.. hihi.. sana manalo ako kahit sa isa lang.. niahahha.. pero.. ano na mangyayari dun pag nanalo ako?

hay.. tgal naman... kainis.. ano ggwin ko d2 magisa??

newei... gotta go.. post muna ako sa teentalk.. :)

hay... me here at the e-lib... trying to spend the supposed-to-be-NCM- time.. we dont have a prof again.. i dont know if we dont just have a classroom.. or the prof's absent.. anywei.. im all alone again.. dont know what to do.. dont know where to hang-out.. so i went here...

bakit ganon.. kung mag-isa ka lang.. dami mong iniisip.. kung ano-ano.. kung sino-sino.. hanggang sa magset na yung utak mo sa isang bagay, sa isang memory.. sa isang tao... sa isang taong hindi ka man lang naiisip,, sa isang taong ni text, ni tawag wala... hay.. mahirap tlga... ngayon.. sha nnman nasa isip ko.. ano kaya gingwa nia? ano kaya kinain nya ngyon? anong oras kaya break time nila? hay.. shit to.. i hate this feeling... miss ko na sha.. ilang araw ko na syang di nakikita eh... hay..... pakita ka naman.. kahit likod lang.. haha.. grabe... praning na ako..

i woke up at 4am because its a saturday.. my dad wont take me to the school kaya hanggang sa kayan lang.. i cooked my own breakfast... nagpainit ng tubig.. and even ironed my uniform.. hay.. feeling independent.. then 5:30 ngpahatid na ako sa school... tas wala pang sakay sa fx so my mom insisted na magjeep na lang ako.. eh ano pa nga bang mggwa ko eh kaysa naman sa ma-late noh.. so ayun.. nagjeep ako.. argh.. kainis.. sagap ko pollution ng manila... early in the morning amoy usok na ako... nakarating ako ng morayta ng 610am... before.. bumababa ako sa lerma.. then daan dun sa underpass.. but this time bumaba ako sa Mcdo P.Campa then ngoverpass... why?  kase umaasang makikita sya.. but unfortunately di ko sya nakita... i stayed sa pav dhil i was waiting for him.. u know just to see him.. kahit likod lang nia.. but very unlucky me.. wala tlga.. so umakyat na ako ng room then.. ayun we found out na si ma'am ramel.. wala pala.. she's sick.. why are most of the IN professors are sick? whats this? epidemya?!! hehe.. but we were given an assignment so we have to reearch and all that... 1030 i havent seen him... argh... uwian na.. wala pa rin... hay...then ayun.. i just decided to go home... argh... its been three days since i last saw him.. i miss him so much.. lam mo yun.. kahit man lang txt wala.. i miss his pacute thingies.. i miss everything about him.. kahit yung mga text niang tagus-tagusan na.. un bang sooper dooper nasasaktan na ako... ok lang... iniisip ko.. at least.. naiisip ni akong lapitan sa prob nia... hay... san ka na ba? paramdam ka na ha.. plssss..

hay.. i dont know what to do..im so confused... i know i've been a good person.. not really good but i see to it na hindi ako nakakasakit ng tao.. i fight for what is right.. i fight for my friend's rights... i am a fighter daw.. pero bakit ganon.. there are times na sobrang mahina ako... there are sum circumstances that i wanna give up... there are times that i just cant control my tears from rolling down from my eyes... wala akong sinasaktan na tao... pero bakit ako laging nasasaktan... hindi ba ako pwedeng maging happy? people see me as a cheerful person.. a happy person... miss outgoing nga daw eh... pero they dont know.. deep inside... my heart is crying.. my heart is in pain... strong ba to? hindi mailabas ang sinasabi ng heart? aahh.. anong ggwin ko.. ayoko na ng ganitong buhay. ayoko na.. i want to end this story of mine na.. i want a new chapter... but life doesnt give me the opportunity to open a new chapter in life.. this chapter i have has been repeating over and over again... this was also the life i have in the past few years... hay... what the heck..