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Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Tue, 24 May 2005 03:06:36 GMT

sorry but i am not using this blog anymore. go to
http://xylerrific.blogspot.com
and
http://xylerrific.tk

see you there!

Thursday, August 19, 2004

Thu, 19 Aug 2004 07:41:41 GMT

hay.. as usual.. im online again.. alang magawa eh.. kase we were dismissed at around 3 eh i have a practice ng dance at 6... so instead of waiting alone there in pav.. me here na lang..tambay.. and post sa teentalk {as usual!}

so what's up with me? anyweiz... i toped our chem class.. lam mo ba yun! niahhaa... sa chem lecture top3 ako.. then sa chem lab.. aba... top 1 ako.. nyahaha.. although.. kung ibbase mo yun sa standards koh.. mababa pa yun grade ko.. kase 2 lang equivalent nun.. eh ang target ko sana eh flat 1.. ssshh.. quiet ah... i dont hink i would be able to get that kase prelim pamlang 2 na.. hindi na ako mkkahabol kaht anong gwin ko.. aim na lang ako ng 1.5 pwede na ba yun? hehe... anyweiz.. im doin good naman in class.. kaya lang i really find nutrition... BORING.. as in... parang hindi conducive to learning yung room namin.. tas ang hina pa ng boses ng prof namin.. ewan ko... i barely listen to my prof eh.. wahahah!!

anyweiz.. last week pala... i went for an audition sa dance.. kase if you got accepted... you'll be included sa performers sa welcome party on 29 where MYMP will be performing too..!! yey.. im sooo excited.. anyweiz.. its not that biggie party naman.. its for nursing studs lang naman.. kaya lang.. dami ahse... they'll gonna conquer the area.. kase andami nila... sana wala namang away kase diba.. pangit naman non.. anyweiz.. yun nga.. i got accepted.. kaya lang there are some people who made an issue na.. the reason why i got accepted was that the judges know me.. eh.. heller???!!! hindi lang naman isa yung ngjudge.. do i know the other judges? do they know me? hindi noh... i onli know one of them kase nakasama ko na yun sa dance last year.. hay naku.. why are they making rumors about that? it's very mababaw.. lam mo yun.. kainis.. hay naku.. di ko na nga lang sila pinapansin eh... kase.. diba?? ang babaw tlga..

uy.. guess what.. i got nominated sa teentalk awards... 2 nominations.. friendliest and cutest avatar.. yey.. hihi.. sana manalo ako kahit sa isa lang.. niahahha.. pero.. ano na mangyayari dun pag nanalo ako?

hay.. tgal naman... kainis.. ano ggwin ko d2 magisa??

newei... gotta go.. post muna ako sa teentalk.. :)

Monday, June 21, 2004

Mon, 21 Jun 2004 04:42:41 GMT

hay... me here at the e-lib... trying to spend the supposed-to-be-NCM- time.. we dont have a prof again.. i dont know if we dont just have a classroom.. or the prof's absent.. anywei.. im all alone again.. dont know what to do.. dont know where to hang-out.. so i went here...

bakit ganon.. kung mag-isa ka lang.. dami mong iniisip.. kung ano-ano.. kung sino-sino.. hanggang sa magset na yung utak mo sa isang bagay, sa isang memory.. sa isang tao... sa isang taong hindi ka man lang naiisip,, sa isang taong ni text, ni tawag wala... hay.. mahirap tlga... ngayon.. sha nnman nasa isip ko.. ano kaya gingwa nia? ano kaya kinain nya ngyon? anong oras kaya break time nila? hay.. shit to.. i hate this feeling... miss ko na sha.. ilang araw ko na syang di nakikita eh... hay..... pakita ka naman.. kahit likod lang.. haha.. grabe... praning na ako..

Saturday, June 19, 2004

Sat, 19 Jun 2004 06:29:20 GMT

i woke up at 4am because its a saturday.. my dad wont take me to the school kaya hanggang sa kayan lang.. i cooked my own breakfast... nagpainit ng tubig.. and even ironed my uniform.. hay.. feeling independent.. then 5:30 ngpahatid na ako sa school... tas wala pang sakay sa fx so my mom insisted na magjeep na lang ako.. eh ano pa nga bang mggwa ko eh kaysa naman sa ma-late noh.. so ayun.. nagjeep ako.. argh.. kainis.. sagap ko pollution ng manila... early in the morning amoy usok na ako... nakarating ako ng morayta ng 610am... before.. bumababa ako sa lerma.. then daan dun sa underpass.. but this time bumaba ako sa Mcdo P.Campa then ngoverpass... why? kase umaasang makikita sya.. but unfortunately di ko sya nakita... i stayed sa pav dhil i was waiting for him.. u know just to see him.. kahit likod lang nia.. but very unlucky me.. wala tlga.. so umakyat na ako ng room then.. ayun we found out na si ma'am ramel.. wala pala.. she's sick.. why are most of the IN professors are sick? whats this? epidemya?!! hehe.. but we were given an assignment so we have to reearch and all that... 1030 i havent seen him... argh... uwian na.. wala pa rin... hay...then ayun.. i just decided to go home... argh... its been three days since i last saw him.. i miss him so much.. lam mo yun.. kahit man lang txt wala.. i miss his pacute thingies.. i miss everything about him.. kahit yung mga text niang tagus-tagusan na.. un bang sooper dooper nasasaktan na ako... ok lang... iniisip ko.. at least.. naiisip ni akong lapitan sa prob nia... hay... san ka na ba? paramdam ka na ha.. plssss..

Friday, June 18, 2004

Fri, 18 Jun 2004 07:24:57 GMT

hay.. i dont know what to do..im so confused... i know i've been a good person.. not really good but i see to it na hindi ako nakakasakit ng tao.. i fight for what is right.. i fight for my friend's rights... i am a fighter daw.. pero bakit ganon.. there are times na sobrang mahina ako... there are sum circumstances that i wanna give up... there are times that i just cant control my tears from rolling down from my eyes... wala akong sinasaktan na tao... pero bakit ako laging nasasaktan... hindi ba ako pwedeng maging happy? people see me as a cheerful person.. a happy person... miss outgoing nga daw eh... pero they dont know.. deep inside... my heart is crying.. my heart is in pain... strong ba to? hindi mailabas ang sinasabi ng heart? aahh.. anong ggwin ko.. ayoko na ng ganitong buhay. ayoko na.. i want to end this story of mine na.. i want a new chapter... but life doesnt give me the opportunity to open a new chapter in life.. this chapter i have has been repeating over and over again... this was also the life i have in the past few years... hay... what the heck..

Thursday, June 10, 2004

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 05:24:13 GMT

ayun.. di ako nabilhan ng fone kase for some reasons... kase sabit lang naman tlga ako eh.. huhu.. ok lang sa susunod daw.. hay....

grabe.. loveless ako... haha!! pero kei lang kse at least i dont worry that much..

Sunday, June 06, 2004

Sun, 06 Jun 2004 08:06:15 GMT

just got from sm.. ayun.. ngcanvass ng fone.. hihi.. baka sa tuesday bili na kame.. yey.. sana!! hehe.. bkit kaya di ako mkpagpost sa chatterbox koh?

Saturday, June 05, 2004

Sat, 05 Jun 2004 05:08:37 GMT

gosh... its been a month since i last posted here... grabe.. i have a major problem.. i cant post sa chatterbox ko.. as in... chamba lang!! grrr... nakakinis.. why kaya..

well.. last jun2 and jun 3 i watched harry potter... well.. as you all know.. im such a harry potter fan.. and im sure.. im one of those people who cant wait to see the movie.. but after i watched it.. guess what.. i was so disappointed.. grrr...

kase... sobrang daming wala sa movie na meron sa book... huhu..

pero kei lang.. tsaka nagiba din pala yung setting.. one thing i liked in the movie eh yung sa time turner.. as in.. naastigan tlaga ako dun!

ayun.. uhmm i have my own forum na... www.raved.cjb.net.. im so happy!!

grabe.. di na kame classmates ng scf... tsaka ni... :( haha!!

so till here munah..ü

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

Tue, 04 May 2004 00:32:15 GMT

waahh.. me here at e-lib ng school namin.. saya! wala kame ggwin eh.. uhhmm.. ano ba? la lang.. mejo asar lang ako sa iba naming classmates! parang they want to tell something.. hay... ewan.. di ko na lang papansinin.. ok naman yung iba eh.. friendly naman sila.. pero there are people na pinaparamdam pa rin samin na we're not welcome... not that my kada is so attached with each other.. ewan.. hay... basta thankful ako kase i have my third barkda... the so called friends! waaahhh.. miss the whole group!! argh! hay.. sige teentalk muna... maya na lang.. mwahugz!

Saturday, May 01, 2004

Sat, 01 May 2004 23:16:40 GMT

i am really sad right now... one thing that i really dont like to happen to me eh yung maipit sa isang situation where in it's really hard to choose.. i promised my barkada na magkikita kame kahapon... we planned that sort of reunion last thursday... so i expected na i would be going... but friday,, our professor got mad.. he assigned us a project that he hasn't taught yet... then... there was an announcment that on monday, we will have a role play... my groupd decided to practice on saturday which is the day of our planned reunion...

i texted my friend, na im not sure kung makaksama ako kase we have practice nga but i'll try na humabol... saturday afternoon... ala pa kameng practice... i was worried kase nga sa monday na.. then our leader.. sabi nia ako gawa script... i want to reject that task but if i will not accept it... whats gonna happen with my group? so ayun.. ni-accept ko sia... that same day, may plano rin kame kita ng isa kong friend coz we have to finish the assignment out prof gave us... i waited for her at excel... but hapon na ala pa rin siya.. i texted her na mauuna na ako... she asked, how about our module... sabi ko.. ako na lang ggwa.. ayoko man gawin.. pero what can i do.. this is our grade... my grade... i promised na babawi ako this summer.. kahit summer lang to.. kse nga i was really disappointed with my own grades...

so.. sa sobrang daming trabaho... i wasnt able to go to my 'kada's place... they texted me na if i wont go, they would get mad at me.. ano ggwin ko??!!! i have lots of tasks to do.. sana naman nainitindihan nila diba... :(